Anxiety- You’re not alone

To a woman, wife or mama with anxiety

You’re not alone.

You often do feel lonely. You could have your parents, children, partner, friends and everyone else you love dearly filling the room around you but still feel alone.

You feel guilt.. A LOT of guilt. “Why do I feel lonely when I’m surrounded by so many beautiful kind hearted souls?”

“How have I got the right to feel this way when I’m well and truly blessed in many more ways than one?” This cannot be helped.

You can’t help the way you think. You can’t stop those bizzare thoughts. You can’t stop the constant worry and fear you go through daily.

You didn’t choose to have these thoughts just like you don’t know how to freeze them.

Your worst fear is bad things happening. Car crash? Kidnap? Death? Illness? Those are just a few from the endless list.

You become overwhelmed with your emotions and tend to snap at your nearest and dearest.

This will lead to huge masses of regret instantly..which of course leads to more overthinking.

“What if they leave me? What if they don’t understand? What if I can’t explain?”

You’ll find yourself trying to battle through it all alone, you don’t want to worry anyone else. You don’t want them to have the same nightmare worry that you have.

You assume you’re doing the correct thing by putting others before yourself. When In fact this will perhaps be causing more damage than good.

You’re just trying to do the right thing.

You cry. You cry in the shower when nobody else can hear, you return to your family like nothing happened. You don’t want to bother them with your troubles, with the thoughts that not even you know how to tame.

You ask yourself time and time again when does it end? When does this agonising, exhausting and horrific thing end. Nobody knows.

You talk yourself out of going to the doctors for help.

Not even I know how to stop the way my brain works so how can somebody else?”

You find yourself cancelling plans.

“But what if the kids need me..” what if this.. what if that.. ?”

There is the dreaded worry AGAIN.

You stare into space more than you know. This hasn’t gone unnoticed. People just think you’re having a day dream but in reality your head is a silent war zone.

You overthink.. everything.

A funny look you received whilst getting on the bus with your children? A comment which was most definitely a joke? You laugh it off through the day but lay in bed thinking about it a night.

You remember the negative and never the positive.

You think and think and think into an overload of fear and worry. Resulting in a crippling migraine.

You realise that anxiety is something none of us asked for. It’s not my fault.

Anxiety controls our thoughts, it often takes over, it makes us worry to the point where we feel feeling physically sick.

Many of us suffer in silence.

But you don’t have to.

Confide.

Find someone you trust and confide.

It won’t be the easiest of tasks but I promise it’ll be worth it.

Knowing somebody is there to listen and understand.

Knowing somebody is there who is patient with you, who goes at your pace.

Knowing somebody is there to help you through it and reassures you that everything’s going to be OK.

The pressure is lifted.

I’m here and so are you.

To a woman, wife or mama with anxiety

You’re not alone.

Lots of love

Jo X

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  1. March 17, 2018 / 5:03 pm

    Thank you for writing this post. It means a lot as I can relate to some of it to how I am have been feeling/suffering. Its got to the point where I have had to seek out help. I have talked to people about how I feel but don’t feel like they truly understand. So thank you, I now don’t feel so alone and that you understand. We are not Alone xx

    • March 17, 2018 / 5:05 pm

      Don’t even thank me sugar! We are NOT alone, we have each other. Well done for seeking help, that takes some serious strength girl. I’m only ever a message away, always. Lots of love Xx

  2. April 6, 2018 / 11:59 pm

    Anxiety sucks. But once you find someone who truly understands it and why it affects you the way it does, it makes everything so much easier. I also suffer from anxiety, so thank you for sharing your experiences with me.

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